孤單心事

好久好久沒寫華語的部落了。
這首歌正在描述著我此刻的心情。我又再一次感受到他們所說的 “當你不開心的時候，你聽的不是旋律而是歌詞”.
愛你是孤單的心事，不懂得你微笑的意思。
我在你心裏是否能有點特別？別忘了我一直都在你身邊。
從昨天你一直按電話的樣子看來，你應該是在和某位女生在談天吧。你對我無動於衷。
剛剛看報紙時說不應該執著於某些事。執著不代表能擁有。
堅持算什麽？
執著算什麽？
終究也是感覺在犯錯。
沒有感覺=沒有結果
為何我要執著於一段沒結果的戀情？我不知道。
我堅持不讓眼淚滑下，因為我知道不值得。就算我哭了，他也不知道。他也不會理會。
我不應該浪費這些眼淚。
我還記得，我看{愛上巧克力}時，她說：“眼淚是上帝特別賜給女生的。所以女生就有那權利利用哭泣來發泄心中的感覺。”
但，我告訴自己，絕對不能讓眼淚流下。可是，好像沒啥作用。哈哈~ 因為我是愛哭包。
誰不想別人疼愛？
誰不是貪心想要很多人疼愛？
總是在別人的面前嘻嘻哈哈，但有誰是真的明白,了解我心中的感覺。
不說是不想別人擔心。不說是因為這世界太現實，很難才能找到一個值得你去信任的對象。

現在的你，應該很享受在那派對吧？我對你來說，只是你寂寞時的解藥。現在你已經找到你要的東西，所以就把我拋開。但在這個時候，我的心已經被你慢慢的牽走了。
我無權選擇你。

♚ Stay Tune ♚
End.

Vertigo Night

I am having a complicated mood while writing this post.
Yesterday I thought will be a wonderful night, at least you'll try to communicate or whatelse to me. Haha, at the end, think too much. You were just stick with Fish and Chit chat with her. I get jealous actually, but I have no right to do so, cuz Fish is my besties and they both know each other longer than both of us. Hmm.....
Besides, you seems like do not have a bit flipped towards me. Regardless how was I tried to attracted you. Even when you want to leave, the first one to know wasn't me but Fish, imma just a simple sentence "I'm leave now, bye "  I know I couldn't expected too much from you. However, thanks for your fake goodbye kiss too. It still touched my heart.
Next, I dislike you like trying to push me to another person. I knew because you wanted your friend will be more enjoy when going out with us. I'm okay with this. Just.... I dunno...... how to explain the feeling.
Actually.... what do you think towards me? I can felt that you already knew that I'm fall for you. Since I felt that you are trying to stay a distance with me.
I dunno what to do now~~~ I feel lost. I'm trying to put it down. I'm trying ~ I force myself to try it ~~ I dun expect you'll read my blogger. I just wish that you may feel what I feel now.
Lastly, Vertigo really sucks -.- 
The speakers are totally failed. And the DJ was not okay~~~ regret~ should choose Stage.
But fine, at least get one more experience.
May I take over some space from your heart? I miss you boy ♥
♚ Stay Tune ♚
End.

With Babe Girl :D

Today 18.01.13

Holiday has been finished 2 weeks, 2 more weeks to enjoy my holidays. Time flies ~~~~ Awwww  :(
Today should be an awesome day. Backed to high school and played basketball with my precious teammates. Besides, we still backed to our memorable venue to have our lunch and chilling at thr.
However........
When I reached home that moment, my mood totally spoiled. They were here this afternoon while I'm not at home. They leave a piece of paper with numbers. I almost collapsed at that moment. Why was those bullshit feeling back to me?
I choose to escape, hidden the memory. But at the end, they force me to think back everything.
I never told dad that I was worried actually. I worried they will do something that will hurt her.
I just wonder why they want to continue like this. Why don't just let us continue our life peacefully?! I am just pissed off.
I can't control my emotional. At the time, I just wish to get something from you. However, I know I just expect too much, think too much.. you'll not did such things again to me.
Today I heard something from babe girl. Those incidents quite hurt me. But I know I have no right to think that. Just because I'm nothing for you.
I dunno what to do when I heard that. I know I just can accept and do nothing at there. You're not mine.
Gonna meet you on tmr. I just wish that you'll eyes on me. Yet, I will not expect too much. Expectations always bring disappointment along. Ya, I understand the quote.
I miss you and I wish to get something from you.


♚Stay tune♚
End.

BEACH DAY ^ BATU FERRINGHI

I looks small and short haha XD

A New Year Begin ● 2013

Wow, it has been long time I never update my blogger. Busy life~ Life busy~
Take a break, and write sthg about my recent activities  ;)
1yr from past, look backward and I found that a lot of things had changed, especially people. Sometimes people tend to betray, even the one who closest with you.
For my principle, if you choose to betray, better don't let me know, just because I do not want to break up any relationship between people.
We knew the problem arise, but we choose to escape. Maybe it would be a better way to maintain a relationship.
There are a lot of double-faced person around this real world. They taught me never ever believe in anyone unless you think they are worth for and they do appreciate the trust between you and him. How terrible is it when someone talk to you with one story and talk to others with another different story. No one is born to love you, this is the reality.

Besides all such bullshit things happened, there are something which brighten my life.
Him, even we never getting together at the end just because of my problem. Yet, I still hope that you really get your happiness with your current girl. You're a good boy with no doubt. Stay in love with her  ;)

He, the recent, for you, I love you yet I hate you too. Why?
You tried to take away my heart and thus disappeared yourself without reason in a sudden. Do you know how I used to wait for your call, I miss those calls, texts, whatsapp between me and you.
We talked on phone at the late night, even if we did not have any topics you still on the phone and trying to tell me sthg about you. I knew a different you at that moment. How was your secondary school life, even your love life....
However, now everything gone. Everything back to zero. What you do now is, texting me isn't because you miss me, is merely mean you are boring or need me to help you sthg. I dislike. Somehow I still happy with it. Wth -.-

I do not know whether you will read on my blog or not. Even yes, nothing to do with it also. Haha! Because..... I'm not the one who mean to you, I am just not important at all  ;)

Last but not least, a new year, a new begin. Reconstruct everything and look forward! My another 10yrs journey is start! Begin a new year with a big big smile ∩__∩

Fight for the last paper on Saturday. Pull up my socks!

**Should be able to update regularly haha ~

♚ Stay tune ♚

End.

♥·一個你，一個他·♥

♥【這一個你】♥
那一晚，
很突然的，
又夢見你啦 ;']
夢里的我們都很開心，
說明是夢當然就只是一場夢而已，
一起來，
什么都沒有了。
這一天的夢，
有點真實、有點驚喜。
夢里的我們是一對情侶，
有一天，
你很突然的送了我一條項鏈。
這條項鏈還蠻特別的，
因為它是一個掛有JESUS的臉且白金的項鏈。

很特別～～
正因為你知道我是屬耶穌的，
所以你送了我這一條項鏈。
當然........
那只是在夢里的一個場景罷了 ;']

多可笑的一場夢！
但..
無可否認，
場面很真實。

寶貝說，
“你會夢見那個人是因為那個人也很想見到你。”
是嗎？
若是真的，
為啥不信息我、不打電話來和我聊天呢。

這句話，
對我來說，
只是自我安慰的一種方式。
讓我們能好過些 ;']

剛剛...
好難得的接到你的電話。
不知你是換了號碼還是有多一個號碼。
你打來時，
你沒說你是誰，
你也沒給機會我問你是誰。
你就一直問、我就一直答。
聽下聽下，
聽得出是你的聲音，
但不確定到底是不是你。
很可惜...
你要找的不是我，
是我爸爸。
要問他一些事....
也很遺憾...
你只是在有事情的時候打電話給我 ;']

有多久你沒再打電話給我了呢？ ;']
確認是你了又怎樣？
你只不過是要借著我找到我爸爸 ;']

呵呵～
很可悲 ;']

我也只能....
這樣 ;']

----------------------------------------------------------【跳过】--------------------------------------------------------
♥【這一個他】♥
他是個讓我感到還蠻遺憾的一個男生，
可惜在我們年齡上差距有點大 ;']

若我出世早個5年，
事情就不會是這樣了 ;']

他，
很體貼。
他的體貼真的溫暖了我的心，
只可惜，
我們除了朋友，
只是朋友，
還是朋友，
未能占有，
未能跨進我們之間的關系。

不是他不優秀，
不是我不能勝任，
只是...
我們的關系只能到如此。 ;']

他，
在陌生人面前很靦腆。
在熟人面前卻總是笑得沒心沒肺、酸人不償命。
酸人是他的高招。
誰時常遭殃？
不是我，就是我姐 =3=
也因為這樣，
我嘴巴也很愛酸人 ;D

他，
雖然有時會突然打電話來也不是找我是找我爸。
但....
有時他真的又會突然打來就只為了酸我、和我聊好無厘頭的話題  ;D
這就是他的可愛 ;]

很遺憾...
我們只是哥兒們、朋友的關系 ;']

----------------------------------------------------------【跳过】--------------------------------------------------------
那天，
陪爸出席了他公司的晚宴 ;]

當然，
【這一個他】也有出席啦。
很難得，
我看見了他害羞的表情！;D
很可愛！0v0

♥這天的我♥

 ** 有木有小女人的FEEL? ;目 ♥

他們都笑我說一定有很多人追求。
很抱歉！
真的一個追求者都沒有 =-=
就連想要有蒼蠅在我頭上轉兩圈都沒有 =-=
你說...
可悲不？ =0=




努力為自己的未來加油!
抹去臉上的淚水,
微笑的迎向明天 ;]


⇘•結束•⇙

♥·MY DAY·♥

更新更新 ;]
要述說下那幾天的日子！
那天..
我們去唱K了.
很難的..
我們4個一起去唱歌,
晚上,5個聚在一塊兒.

這是多么難得的畫面 ;']
很欣慰、很開心的一天 ;]

雖然一見面時有種很尷尬的情況,
當然..
我們一會兒就沒事了,
就像以前那樣 ;]
原來..
我們還是我們 ;]

聚在一塊兒的時光總是過得特別快.
這一天我們談了好多好多從前的回憶,
但就是沒什么在談現況,
也許..
我們都比較懷念過去吧 ;']

♥這一天的我們♥

多希望這一刻的我們停留在那時候 ;']
當然..
最希望的是以后常有這種聚會 ;]
老婆們，
我心你們！！♥♥
----------------------------------------------------------【跳过】--------------------------------------------------------
♥我的魚老婆♥
請你務必要好好照顧自己,
好嗎? =-=

別成天讓我憂心 =0=

至于他那里，
好好談一談吧.

這樣一拖再拖,
只會讓你自己想更多.

我也不能說什么,
畢竟..
我自己也是如此下場.
不同的是,
我是一廂情愿,
而你不是.

不了了之不是解決的唯一方法.
若他繼續逃避,
就...
算了吧 =-=

不是你沒嘗試去解決,
是他根本不想面對?
我不知道.

只想你得到該有的幸福.
這樣下去,
只會讓你越來越缺安全感,
不是嗎? ;']

加油吧！
愛你！！♥♥
----------------------------------------------------------【跳过】--------------------------------------------------------
到自己的生活,
最近,
瘋狂的逛街 ;D
還要連續幾天,
超瘋狂的說！♥

那天晚上....
當我在準備和爸爸出席一間公司的收工酒時,
我爸說你的車停泊在我車隔壁.
當下的反應_“Eiii?? 他有出席?”
本很期待,
下樓時也看見你的車,
但就是沒看見你本人 =-=

結果?
當然是失望咯 ;']
你哪可能會出席呢?!
畢竟..
你已經辭職了嘛 ;']

我真傻~
還在期待你會在.
還在期待些什么?!

我..
好無奈我！;'] ♥

♥本尊♥

努力為自己的未來加油!
抹去臉上的淚水,
微笑的迎向明天 ;]


⇘•結束•⇙

THE LATEST POST ;]

 總于得空來掃這兒的灰塵 ;]
大家好！好久不見 ;D

已接近半年沒更新了，
不是忙著考試、就是懶惰啦 ;D

新的一年又過去了，
仿佛去年好像發生很不愉快的事 ;']
希望今年會比去年更快樂 ;']

-----------------------------------【跳过】-----------------------------------------

一個學期又過啦~~
希望全科及格、成績理理想想！ ;D
新年后就要挑戰7個星期的短學期.
7個星期里要背完1本課本 =3=
希望我能蛤~~~ =-=

大家都開學了,
自然而然聚會越來越少,
仿佛也很少來電了,
這是怎么回事啊?
Aiks.. X[

各有各忙后,
別忘了,
自己最內心的好朋友 ;']
好好照顧自己,
我的老婆們!♥

那天,
你好突然的信息我,
我很驚訝、驚喜.
因為..
很欣慰原來你心里還是有我們,
很欣慰原來我們還是朋友 ;']
嘴里說著多不在乎,
其實心里卻是在乎的很 ;']

原來..
對你我依然是這么的在乎 ;']

有天,
一個人從學校駕車回家時,
車里的播放機碰巧播著【親人】,
眼淚不禁在眼里打轉了一下 ;']
因為..
我真的很懷念曾經的我們.
我們從來沒有吵架到如此的兇、冷戰冷到這么夸張,
這一次,
上帝真給我們的友誼來了個大挑戰 ;']

你知道嗎?
每當我們在KTV里唱【親人】你卻不在的時候,
我們就會哭得稀里嘩啦的,
因為..
這首歌憶起了我們許多的回憶、我們的點點滴滴,
只是沒想到,
你一次又一次的不在 ;']

其實..
我們都還在乎彼此的,
是嗎? ;']

-----------------------------------【跳过】-----------------------------------------

自從你12月中離開你的公司后,
我們沒再見了.
有時只是碰巧見到,
卻沒對上幾句話 ;']
我知道我該放開了啦,
畢竟..
你有女朋友了.
這次應該是真的吧.

無論如何,
還是愿你幸福 ;'] ♥





我告訴我自己...
不會再想你了! ;']



我要個不同的2012年,
我的18歲過得很瑣碎,
我可以有個比較燦爛的19歲嗎? ;] ♥

有點過分燦爛的笑容 ;D

努力為自己的未來加油!
抹去臉上的淚水,
微笑的迎向明天 ;]

♥結束♥