ACCA Student Conference 2013

The past 2days, I've been a campaign - ACCA Conference.
The first time I'm joining this. Have so much fun and it's unforgettable. Learned a lot of knowledge from the talk whereby contributed by those professional body, even though some talk was really bored yet we still gain something at least haha  :D
I had did a personality test that were from one of a talk, the test showed that I'm a passive person. Easily bully by people. Hmm.. I dun think so actually haha.. being passive is depends on how the situation will be. Next, we should be an assertive person rather than passive / aggressive. Although we are unable to change our behaviour, but we are able to make some enhancements on it. To be a better me  ;)
A lot of tears, sweats, laughs, etc happened throughout this campaign. We learned how it meant by teamwork.
We learned to be optimistic regardless how many obstacles are there in front of us.
We learned to be appreciable toward anything we have. Do not complaint. if you want it, you just try your best to get it from your hands instead of sitting and complain this & that.

Had so much fun on this campaign. I love it.
It's make us have a bunch extra of new friends.
It's make us to understand how teamwork is going to be.
It's make us to feel relax.
It's filled up our free time in doing something that do really help us.
It's taught us to be a better me. Never give up on everything even when you are in toughness.

I will choose to joining again this campaign next gear. Or either if there is a chance, maybe able to be one of the committee? haha xD 

♛Stay Tune♛
End.

Night.

A raining night.
It's feeling strong to let people think of alot of things. You Me & You You  ... ... ...

Time flies like blinking of an eye.
I fall for you have been passing 300++ days.
Unbelievable haha ~
300++ days I went through a lil happiness, a lil sad, a lil lonely, a lil heartbreak etc etc
But the most important thing will be you succeeded to find someone you really love. Even though you both seems like unhappy in these few days. Anyway, dun be easily to give it up  ;)

Today went to visit a skin specialist, it cost me RM122. Hmm.. hope this RM122 is really work on my terrible lips problem. If not, I will RIP -.-   cuz it's really too expensive ommo ~~
Then, went to HPV injection with my girls. Wuu ~ pain nia.. hand totally cannot raise up. Terrible man ~ hmm.. hope tmr will be fine D:

Recently fall in love with one song - Shiga 連詩雅  說一句。

還未刪的分手私信
還在心的街角抱擁
不痛　不敢覺得痛
你也許　介意我　千瘡百孔
有誰願意　重複愛著誰
有緣無份　何苦再受罪
今天沒有你　便來一些花絮
止住了　每次心碎
哪一個比你好　比你差　緊要嗎
說一句放下了　心裡邊　更牽掛
普天下愛戀　誠實或者欺詐
總之有人來陪我　別問那一線之差會找到比你好　比你差　緊要嗎
我給你撇下了　爭氣點　學愛得高雅
體恤求愛者　無謂太早醜化
閒聊談笑　但是說到將來　我怕

愛情玩意　曾輸到盡頭
別來無恙　傻得我念舊
心中還有你　就如不解的咒
怎樣看　也看不透

害怕戀愛太艱深
投入熱情未得到相對的一生一世
我問　應該怎麼接吻
哪一個比你好　比你差　緊要嗎
說一句放下了　心裡邊　更牽掛
幾多場痛哭　其實值得哭嗎
躲不了重頭來過　別望那消散煙花去找個比較好　不太差　便成功嗎
我可以幼稚到　扮成熟　望遠方落霞
可惜還有心　無謂看得很化
從來情愛　就是最老的謎對嗎

♛Stay Tune♛
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好難得你遇見了對的人

嗨，部落格，我回來啦~
在我離開的一段時間，是否有人在乎了？
終於.......
他們在一起了。如他所願，我也預測到。就算一個女生多麽想要單身，當有個男生對你很好，追求你，誰會拒絕？哈哈  ;')

別人問起我，“你怎麼樣？”
我能怎樣？我也只能無所謂啦。
心裏存在些不甘心也於事無補。畢竟人家愛的是她，不是我。我無可奈何，也只能選擇接受。

表面上的無所謂，
我真的好想心裏也隨著一樣的無所謂。
可是，現實總是這樣。
你偏要這樣，它偏不是這樣。

祝福 真的很難
我曾加了她的面子書  可我又刪除了
因為我不想再知道你們倆的事。
但總是天意弄人，
偏偏她常在instagram常post你倆的照片 

該放下了
該離開了
告訴自己你很愛很愛她

我不是你想像中開朗
偽裝的再出色
也有疲憊的一天

努力工作
為的不只是錢
還有利用它來忘記你的一切

越忘記
越記得
我只能努力放下
能捨才能得

有什麽痛徹心扉的理由能讓我忘記？

♛Stay Tune♛
End.

* The Last Post *

Last night went to your house for your sista's baby girl full moon celebration. Fish and I were missing on the way to your home. Do you know how fears are we? We turned into a dark and quiet Malay Street, felt helpless. You dun even talked to me and I just fed up. You rather talked with Fish. Yes, I knew you are closer with her. Yeaaaa~
I knew you have been felt what I thought. This is why you try to stay a distance with me and dun even eyes contact with me. And I knew I should really put everything down since I just like an oxygen in your eyes.
I am just like a transparent in your eyes. And, everyone who close to you seems getting knew who am I and knew I like you. FML~
The very one first knew was "Doreamon". My gosh~! When the words out from his mouth, FML, I shocked. And I have a bad feeling at the same time.
Yes, I should let go at the time I knew I had fall for you. Maybe I will not as suffer as like this right now. We are no longer closer like last time. You put me aside and stay a distance from me. Maybe you think I'm a girl who are fall for you not because of you? but because of other things. I dunno I frustrated.
Not the first time I failed in this part. Sometimes aren't I demand higher, it just I difficult to fall for somebody.
Who don't wish that received a warm text or warm pressiieee during Valentine's day or any other special and meaningful days? Every girls wish to have a special one who are able to stand beside to celebrate every single special and meaningful days.
I always believe that GOD is arranging the best for me. But, sometimes, just, jealous.... envy.... others. Especially my GFF. Everyone of them have met their beloved. Well Done! Nvm, I still can stand alone thr, dunid always yield to me. I'm okay I'm alright for alone. Sometimes I do not want to join you all for outing, is just I dun wish to be a 150++volt light bulb haha :)
Hence, do not blame on me if I rejected outing or gathered with you girls. I have my own reason :)

Let go not an easy job for me. I just need time to yield on it.

277 days not really a long period. Maybe I able to let go haha ;')
Will disappeared for awhile to heal my pain~


♚Stay Tune♚
End.

Fear

Those people came again. I dunno what to do and how to face it.
Regardless how strong am I in other moment, I just weak enough during this moment. I really fear when they knocked the door.
I dunno how~ I knew they couldn't do so much things since I didn't bothered them. They just so horrible~! They spoiled my holiday.
I dunno when only I can putting down all the fears when they knocked my door again.
I truly feel that I'm useless and I can't find anyone to help me but myself. I have to calm myself down and balance myself instead of frightened.
I really need a million thanks to those who gave me such dark side. I really can't let go such dark side. Every time when people talked or those people 'VISIT', I just collapsed.

I really frustrated towards myself. I just worrying to stay alone at home nowadays. I just dun wish to see those people face.
Please, please go away from my life~ please~~~

I have nothing, I'm just a little girl with a little dream.
I wish to receive something from you badly, but I know it is useless. ' She wants to be your everything  but end up you made her become nothing.'
I need someone to protect and stay by my side when the fears are come towards me. Yet, it is just a difficult mission ever  ;')

♚Stay Tune♚
End.

What should I do?

You just whatsapp me in a sudden. I expected what was it, but it always out of my expectations. You send me your bank account number and asked me bank in the balance to your account.
Why dun just meet me up? I purposely not to ask you how am I going to give you back the money just because I still putting some hopes on you. Yet, it's hopeless.
This action told me that you are no longer want to meet me up. Or think the other side to comfort myself is, he need money indeed.
I should start to give you up? I should let go? Actually, I am just unwilling and hate to do so. Even though I knew the result is hopeless.
I really do not wish to let go, but the situation seems to force me to do so. Imma collapsed~ Imma frustrated~

This holiday I feel so lifeless. Nothing to do. Jobless = No $$
I have to stay strong ~ Yea, I tell myself always ;')

I want to be your girl, not one of the girls. Every girls wish to have the same result. But life always challenging and tough, things that easily to get is not worth for us.

♚ Stay Tune ♚
End.

孤單心事

好久好久沒寫華語的部落了。
這首歌正在描述著我此刻的心情。我又再一次感受到他們所說的 “當你不開心的時候，你聽的不是旋律而是歌詞”.
愛你是孤單的心事，不懂得你微笑的意思。
我在你心裏是否能有點特別？別忘了我一直都在你身邊。
從昨天你一直按電話的樣子看來，你應該是在和某位女生在談天吧。你對我無動於衷。
剛剛看報紙時說不應該執著於某些事。執著不代表能擁有。
堅持算什麽？
執著算什麽？
終究也是感覺在犯錯。
沒有感覺=沒有結果
為何我要執著於一段沒結果的戀情？我不知道。
我堅持不讓眼淚滑下，因為我知道不值得。就算我哭了，他也不知道。他也不會理會。
我不應該浪費這些眼淚。
我還記得，我看{愛上巧克力}時，她說：“眼淚是上帝特別賜給女生的。所以女生就有那權利利用哭泣來發泄心中的感覺。”
但，我告訴自己，絕對不能讓眼淚流下。可是，好像沒啥作用。哈哈~ 因為我是愛哭包。
誰不想別人疼愛？
誰不是貪心想要很多人疼愛？
總是在別人的面前嘻嘻哈哈，但有誰是真的明白,了解我心中的感覺。
不說是不想別人擔心。不說是因為這世界太現實，很難才能找到一個值得你去信任的對象。

現在的你，應該很享受在那派對吧？我對你來說，只是你寂寞時的解藥。現在你已經找到你要的東西，所以就把我拋開。但在這個時候，我的心已經被你慢慢的牽走了。
我無權選擇你。

♚ Stay Tune ♚
End.

Vertigo Night

I am having a complicated mood while writing this post.
Yesterday I thought will be a wonderful night, at least you'll try to communicate or whatelse to me. Haha, at the end, think too much. You were just stick with Fish and Chit chat with her. I get jealous actually, but I have no right to do so, cuz Fish is my besties and they both know each other longer than both of us. Hmm.....
Besides, you seems like do not have a bit flipped towards me. Regardless how was I tried to attracted you. Even when you want to leave, the first one to know wasn't me but Fish, imma just a simple sentence "I'm leave now, bye "  I know I couldn't expected too much from you. However, thanks for your fake goodbye kiss too. It still touched my heart.
Next, I dislike you like trying to push me to another person. I knew because you wanted your friend will be more enjoy when going out with us. I'm okay with this. Just.... I dunno...... how to explain the feeling.
Actually.... what do you think towards me? I can felt that you already knew that I'm fall for you. Since I felt that you are trying to stay a distance with me.
I dunno what to do now~~~ I feel lost. I'm trying to put it down. I'm trying ~ I force myself to try it ~~ I dun expect you'll read my blogger. I just wish that you may feel what I feel now.
Lastly, Vertigo really sucks -.- 
The speakers are totally failed. And the DJ was not okay~~~ regret~ should choose Stage.
But fine, at least get one more experience.
May I take over some space from your heart? I miss you boy ♥
♚ Stay Tune ♚
End.

With Babe Girl :D

Today 18.01.13

Holiday has been finished 2 weeks, 2 more weeks to enjoy my holidays. Time flies ~~~~ Awwww  :(
Today should be an awesome day. Backed to high school and played basketball with my precious teammates. Besides, we still backed to our memorable venue to have our lunch and chilling at thr.
However........
When I reached home that moment, my mood totally spoiled. They were here this afternoon while I'm not at home. They leave a piece of paper with numbers. I almost collapsed at that moment. Why was those bullshit feeling back to me?
I choose to escape, hidden the memory. But at the end, they force me to think back everything.
I never told dad that I was worried actually. I worried they will do something that will hurt her.
I just wonder why they want to continue like this. Why don't just let us continue our life peacefully?! I am just pissed off.
I can't control my emotional. At the time, I just wish to get something from you. However, I know I just expect too much, think too much.. you'll not did such things again to me.
Today I heard something from babe girl. Those incidents quite hurt me. But I know I have no right to think that. Just because I'm nothing for you.
I dunno what to do when I heard that. I know I just can accept and do nothing at there. You're not mine.
Gonna meet you on tmr. I just wish that you'll eyes on me. Yet, I will not expect too much. Expectations always bring disappointment along. Ya, I understand the quote.
I miss you and I wish to get something from you.


♚Stay tune♚
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BEACH DAY ^ BATU FERRINGHI

I looks small and short haha XD

A New Year Begin ● 2013

Wow, it has been long time I never update my blogger. Busy life~ Life busy~
Take a break, and write sthg about my recent activities  ;)
1yr from past, look backward and I found that a lot of things had changed, especially people. Sometimes people tend to betray, even the one who closest with you.
For my principle, if you choose to betray, better don't let me know, just because I do not want to break up any relationship between people.
We knew the problem arise, but we choose to escape. Maybe it would be a better way to maintain a relationship.
There are a lot of double-faced person around this real world. They taught me never ever believe in anyone unless you think they are worth for and they do appreciate the trust between you and him. How terrible is it when someone talk to you with one story and talk to others with another different story. No one is born to love you, this is the reality.

Besides all such bullshit things happened, there are something which brighten my life.
Him, even we never getting together at the end just because of my problem. Yet, I still hope that you really get your happiness with your current girl. You're a good boy with no doubt. Stay in love with her  ;)

He, the recent, for you, I love you yet I hate you too. Why?
You tried to take away my heart and thus disappeared yourself without reason in a sudden. Do you know how I used to wait for your call, I miss those calls, texts, whatsapp between me and you.
We talked on phone at the late night, even if we did not have any topics you still on the phone and trying to tell me sthg about you. I knew a different you at that moment. How was your secondary school life, even your love life....
However, now everything gone. Everything back to zero. What you do now is, texting me isn't because you miss me, is merely mean you are boring or need me to help you sthg. I dislike. Somehow I still happy with it. Wth -.-

I do not know whether you will read on my blog or not. Even yes, nothing to do with it also. Haha! Because..... I'm not the one who mean to you, I am just not important at all  ;)

Last but not least, a new year, a new begin. Reconstruct everything and look forward! My another 10yrs journey is start! Begin a new year with a big big smile ∩__∩

Fight for the last paper on Saturday. Pull up my socks!

**Should be able to update regularly haha ~

♚ Stay tune ♚

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