MY SiMPLE lifE.....

好久没有写部落格了...
最近的日子都很平凡...
都在做工呢...
上个星期二到四就做jusco,星期日就做捧餐的...
说实在...的确是很累呢...
可是...我就是要将...
因为只有将,我才能暂时把你搁在一边,不要去想你...
唉～～
那天..
还蛮倒霉的...
因为我的钱被偷了...T.T
好惨哦...
幸好不是很多...
唉~~
然后...星期六那晚...陪爸爸他们去钓鱼呢...
那晚还蛮好玩的....
不过,坐在河边还蛮冷的...T.T
那天他又不是驾自己的车...
不然我就有冷衣穿...
呵呵～～
不过,没关系吧...
然后,回的路途上...我,他还有我的干姐...
我们三个睡到像个死猪将....
超夸张...
然后,我不小心睡到他的肩旁呢...
惨!!~~都不懂他是否有知觉呢...
他好像是有避开...
可是..当我打开眼睛的时候...
他睡的姿势是比较直得哦...
所以..不懂是他要让我睡在他肩旁上还是怎样...
哈哈哈哈~~
算了...
没关系...然后...
昨晚做工虽然累...
不过还蛮开心的...
因为...
我们放工后...
我们都在喝酒...
哈哈哈哈哈~~~`
我们喝红酒...喝whisky...
ivy好像喝到醉了...
因为他又喝红酒一大杯...
whisky两杯...
所以,他喝完站起来就开始腿软...
弄到我们笑到肚子痛...
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~
有时候跟他们相处久一点..
我自己也真的会变得开心点...
唉~~~
现在处于一个状态就是....
要为自己活下去...
虽然有时候一个人的生活是满苦涩的...
可是...
我必须往好的方面想...
那天...他跟我说了一句..
让我觉悟了一下...
他说..
他之前跟别的女生分手时,他会跟那个女生说,"我们分手是要让你给多一个机会给别的人,同时也是让我给多一个机会给被人..."
我听了之后..觉得这句话的确是很有意思....
也有很多人跟我说...
你活着不是因为他...
而是为了你自己....
所以,我要好好生活...
希望时间能带走一切...
回忆虽然很让人心寒...
可是,我们必须面对....
有时候看见别人很幸福的模样...
的确是会羡慕别人...
可是,这就是命运和幸运...
也许...你幸运的时候你的确是会在很幸福的处境...
可是,一但是相反的效果...
你就会处在寂寞的处境...
哪有奈何?
因为这就是考验...人生...
现在...
要好好享受单身生活咯....
加油!!!~~

心痛...

这就是你要避开我的理由?
这就是你要我离开你的理由?
这就是要我忘了你的理由吗?
你知道吗?
这几天我尽量不要找你..不要想你...
我尽量去找东西累坏自己...
可是...
我却很期待你的信息...
昨天早上...
我的手不小心又骨折了..
我很害怕...
我很害怕我要进医院...
我很害怕我的手变废了...
我想到的人是你...那又怎样?
我想告诉你...我能吗?
最后..
我自己去调整回它...
我没有跟任何人说...
没有一个人可以让我觉得放心...
你没有理我...
我不知道...
刚刚在facebook看到你的shout out才得知你今晚跟KY他们出去...
当下..
不懂该利用什么心情去接受...
因为...
你真的放我走了...
你真的离开我了...
你真的不再告诉我了...
我很失败...
我很堕落...
我很无助...
我很想撞墙...
没有我的拖累你真的活得比较快乐..
我似乎没有看过你那么开心...
我真的把你拖累了...
现在的你...
应该很开心...很enjoy的再吃你的晚餐吧?
现在就连...
KY..JR...
都对我很冷淡了...
真的是我的错吗?
如果真的是错...
就怪我...
错在太深爱你...
错在放不下你...
错在我接受,原谅你的那一天...
一切的一切...
都是错在我自己...
回家的路上我哭了...
眼泪再一次崩溃了...
我舍不得...
可是时间回不去了...
爱你很值得...
只是该停了...
没有你...
世界仿佛变黑暗...
可是....
我必须自己站会起来...
因为不会再有人会拉我一把了...
伤心欲绝又怎样?
没有人能了解...

伤心欲绝...

昨晚..
跟你在msn chat完后..
我一个人坐在地上流泪,流了将近两个小时呢..
唉~~~
虽然..昨晚喝了点酒..可是..
却睡不着..
说真的..
那时..
脑袋装满的都是你...
你的影子...
你对我说话的神情...
你的笑容...
你的一切一切....
一直在我脑袋徘徊...
想念你却不能说出口...
爱你却不能为你做些什么..
我哭了..
我累了吗?
似乎还没呢..
放弃?
很难...
接受?
更难...
习惯了我的世界有你的出现...
习惯了你关心我的那颗心...
习惯了你爱护我的那颗心...
习惯了你在我需要你时,挺身而出...
习惯了你的作风...
如今...
我的世界只剩下回忆...
回忆里也是只有我一个人在幻想...
M2M从此就破碎了...
今天你去玩了..
开心吧?
♥我想你♥

阴天...

今天..
你来找我了..
我很开心..
可是...
为什么快乐的时光往往都是过得那么快?
你一离开..你就对我说了那些话..
为什么?
为什么你要一直想到坏的那方面?
你问我..为什么在msn没有跟你说什么..我说我害怕说错话..
你知道为什么我会害怕说错话吗?
因为我一直很担心我又说了些你根本不想听的东西..会让你觉得我很没用..
你说我不珍惜你...
你知道珍惜应该用在哪里吗?
你真的觉得我不在珍惜你吗?
如果我说,我从头到尾都没有不珍惜你,你会相信吗?
也许..开学后..你真的越来越没有时间陪我..
可是..
我们的相处方式是可以改变的,不是吗?
为什么每次都要在我还没付出所有的努力时,就判我死刑...让我永不超生...
难道这就是我们之间的代沟吗?
我知道你要的是什么..
我真的在努力改变..
改变真的不是一两天就能完成的东西...
你真的不能给点时间我?
你说..你不再对我像以前那样了..
你说..你开学后,你会慢慢对我没感觉了..
你说..我不在珍惜你..
你说..我不够明白你..
你说..我不会明白你跟我说的一切..
你说..我们做回朋友..
你说..你说..
说说说说说...
这世界怎么这样?
我讨厌这个世界...
这世界..
每次都让我期望..
到后来...
只得到一块粪都不如的烂结果...
若有一天..
这世界不再有我...是否会变得更灿烂?
♥我想你♥

....

今天整个早上..
电话水静河飞...
唉～～
就连你整个早上都没回我信息呢...
今天考美术..
还蛮闷的啦...
不过算了吧...
最近开始不喜欢碰电话了...
因为跟你真的越来越少信息了...
真的在几天内信息的数量都不超过30封...
那对我来说是多夸张恐怖的事呢...
唉～～
能怎样...
似乎不能改变眼前所发生的事...
接受?放开?
不知道...
一大堆疑问在我头脑出现...
突然觉得..
在朋友面前..
我真的才能把你放在一边...
可是....
有时候我们之间的话题...
又会逃不掉会讲到关于你...
唉~~
真痛苦...
现在...
身边的朋友都好幸福洋溢呢...
我呢?
我希望我还是能拥有我本来该有的幸福,好吗?
今天的你...
累了吧?
早点休息...
有机会...
让我帮你按按你疲惫的肩旁和手,好吗?
让我继续照顾你,好吗?
你可以不要再酷酷的对我吗?
我会害怕..
夜深了...没有你的温暖似乎睡得不是很熟呢...
你真的变了...你真的变了....
你开始不喜欢我对你的关心...
你对我反感了!!!!
明天是10号...
你会怎样?
应该忘了吧...
不奢望...
奢望只会带来绝望...
快去死吧...
毛毛...
♥我想你♥

第五天...

这么快...
又过了五天了....
这两天...
我都没什么胃口呢...
所以..一天才吃一次正餐...
我的胃口也变小了...
刚刚吃完晚餐时,突然胃痛了起来呢...
不知怎么回事呢...
唉~~~
昨晚...
你跟我有信息了很多很多关于我们之间的问题呢...
唉~~~
就因为这个原因...
昨晚我一个人...
坐在床上发呆,发呆了差不多一个小时...
同时...我的泪水是一直掉个不停...
脑袋想的都是你所信息给我的...还有我信息给你的东西...
当时...
真的还蛮有要跳楼的感觉呢...
可是...
算了吧...
今天...
我们两个的信息都不超过十封呢...
唉~~~
真惨...
真悲哀...
这两天...
我都是处于比较失落的感觉...
所以...
这两晚都是...
以泪洗脸...
哭到让自己真的觉得累了...
就不知不觉睡了...
每晚都是在发着类似的梦...
还蛮可怕的...
唉~~
18号我想约你去看戏...
可以吗?
可是我不知道你是否有兴趣跟我去看戏....
唉~~~
希望能赶快渡过难关...
♥我想你♥

第四天...

我还以为今天会平平淡淡...无泪水流下来的过...
原来...
我错了...
今天你没有来找到我...因为你说你要去你干爹的celebration...
所以...取消了我的事情...
我也很开心...
因为今天早上你跟我说了一句"dEAR"..
就只有那么的一句...
然后过后的信息都没有了...
我也看了你的部落格...
心碎了...
我们在msn真的真的越来越少话说...
心碎了...
我问你有什么话要对我说吗...
你说没有...
心碎了...
原来你前女友还快知道过我可以找知道的东西...
心碎了...
原本以为可以雨过天晴的...
毛毛..
你真的太天真了...
事情并没有那么的简单,好不好?
突然觉得...我好像是这场爱情的罪魁祸首...
因为自己的不成熟...
不体贴...
不温柔...
不善解人意...
不懂得表达...
所以...
才搞到如此的堕落...
说真的...
有时候不是有一班好朋友在就不需要你...
朋友有固然重要...
可是..你也很重要...
无可否认...
你真的让我学会很多东西...
不过..我不知道你是否有发觉到...
刚刚...
你是不是逼着自己说你想我的呢?
其实..
说真的...
你还在乎我吗?
今天眼泪又不听话地流下来了...
唉～～
我的眼泪为什么都掉不完啊?
真悲哀....
“当我们了解某些人只能活在回忆里..
自己已成为他眼睛里的陌生人...我们已是陌生人了~~~”
这句话...
对我们两人的状况是否正确呢?
M2M真的没机会再破镜从圆了吗?
♥我想你♥

第三天...

今天只有pjk考试...所以,还蛮轻松的呢...
你终于考完试了...
你的试考得还顺利吗?
今天...
你回来,对吧?
还蛮有冲动想见你的呢...
可是...
我可以吗?..
算了~
要克制这种感觉呢...
唉~~~
明天你来找我呢...
明天会不会是我们最后一次见面呢...
我不知道..
说真的...
我有种感觉..明天是我们最后一次见面呢...
唉～
我有紧张...又害怕...
因为..
不知道明天你会跟我说些什么...
我自己...也不知道要跟你说什么...
你已经...
第四天没有再叫我"dEAR"了...
只有我还在叫你"bE"呢...
唉～
你似乎对我向你说的称呼没有任何反应...
也许...
你认为我是习惯了称呼你,所以...
你也没有要拒绝我称呼你这名字的意思,对吧?
唉~~~
不知道...
刚刚...
在msn...
我们两个就像陌生人的谈天...
你就开始对我闷了吗?
应该吧...
我觉得...
明天会是怎么样的场景?
我想象不到呢...
我可以继续想念你吗?
可以让我有这机会吗?
♥我想你♥

第二天...

就这样...
第二天到了...
早上那段时间你没有信息我呢...
怎么了吗?
你不想信息我吗?
唉~~~我也不知道...
你昨晚发给我的信息...
一直在我脑袋回转着...挥之不去....
我还很害怕昨晚那封信息是你发给我的最后一封呢...
唉～～
想太多了...
就这样...
你仿佛像把我抛在后头了...
你不让我赶上你的步伐...
你要我停止我的脚步...
不要跟在你身后...
去找另一个...
你真的舍得把我丢下了吗?
你说你并没有离开我...只是你在向前走...
你说你会一直在我身边...
可是...可是....
我真很害怕我失去你的感觉...
失去你的感觉就像失去了最亲的人...
我的房间...
装着满满你给过我的回忆...
我的脑袋...
装着满满对你的思念...
我仿佛不能让你知道我在想你...
我还很爱你...我想继续关心你...
因为我觉得你会跟我说...
"你忘了对我的牵挂吧~~~"
这样～～
我不知你是否会这样说...
可是.....
唉～～
幸福的起点真的是相等于幸福的终点吗?
你...
仿佛不再属于我的了...
你...
仿佛不会再疼爱我了...
你...
仿佛会慢慢把我忘记...
你...
我...
不能再拥有以前的关系了...
你...
我...
真的结束了吗?
M2M真的又缺了另一半吗?
你现在应该很享受你的晚餐吧?..
你真的开始不让我知道你的行踪了...
你也不再称呼我"dEAR"了......
♥我想你♥
♥我爱你♥

恶魔...

一年多的感情，真的可以在一夜之间变成回忆？
昨晚你告诉我的东西..我不知道要给你啥反应...只是傻在那里...
我简直出不到任何声音...只是眼泪从我的眼睛拼命流下...
心真的很痛很痛～～
不知该怎么形容～～
难道我们的感情就真的经不起考验吗？
你说你不要我辛苦...
你说你不要在我需要男友的时候你不在身边...
你说你说....
....
就在一夜之间....我仿佛像失去了整个世界....
我的世界因此变得很寂寞...
很黑暗....很寒冷....
我也变得很堕落....
泪流了一整夜....
有谁知道....有谁发觉....
没有!!!!~~~
你说我会狠你...
你真的那么需要我的狠么？
如果我狠你, 你会比较好过？
我可以告诉你...
我不会狠你...因为你是为了你的学业...你的前途....我不会强逼你跟我在一起...
一次又一次了...
我的伤口越来越深了....
甚至要有一道很大很大的疤痕了....
一次又一次了...
你要抛弃我了....
你不要我了.....
一次又一次...
一次又一次....
我变得很懦弱了....
被伤得偏体鳞伤...
以后我的路....
只有我的一双脚在走了....
因为你已经比我走得很快很快...
我仿佛已经赶不上你的步伐了....
以后的酸甜苦辣....
也就只有我一个人独自享受....
以后的双人床...
不会再出现你熟悉的睡姿...
你抱着我的温暖...
以后的床...
没有你再帮我去收拾了...
以后的衣服....
没有你再帮我去折了...
以后的我....
再也没有你的爱护..疼爱了...
这一次...
我真的被爱情彻底的打败了....
我该怎么办？
该放手？改捉紧？
你可以告诉我吗？

......

today din go to skul...yesterday alr so less ppl go to skul..dunno today will how!??..
haiz...dunno~~
today dunno why i will speechless wif you...
i dunno...
i nthg wan to tell you or share wif you..
it doesn't mean tat i dunhav feel to talk os be wif you..
just dunno why tis feeling will come out from my mind..
mayb....
recently both of us keep busy on our study..
due to tis..our conversation 1day less than 1day...
tis feeling so horrible..
i try to avoid..
but like not success...
haiz...
dunno~~
you said you need someone to comfort you...
mayb i really not the suitable person...
i cannot manage good my emotions...
always let you feel stress..tis and tat...
i feel you so tired...
before we recouple, you said i become stronger than last time...
actually i din feel the way i strong..
stronger? wat it mean?
......
i said, "everytime i made you feel sad..everytime i made you feel difficult..everytime say something stupid..."
actually you also agree wat i'm saying...
haha~~i also dunno i should happy or sad...
hahahahahahah~~~~~
you said, "mayb you are someone tat fast get angry but slow to bak normal and don't think tat sometimes you need to tum me.."
haha~~really feel myself so funny~so funny~
remain the same ppl...
would never upgrate..maintain...remain de mafan to stay wif others...
really so funny~~
other ppl say me nice to be..
you all is cheat me de, rite?
actually you all be wif me, frenz wif me is for wat??
i nthg special...
character damn bad...
personalities damn bad...
who can tell me tis?
no one!!!~~no one!!!~~~~
i just such a stupid ppl...
STUPID TEARS!!!~~
why you always come out from my eyes!??...
why????
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~

SAD!!!

recently dunno why...
two of us like got alot of problems~~
i HATE myself more than you!!
you said i crazy others more than you..
i easy to worry...so, you said you not strong enough to worry me~
my tears keep on drop...
dunno why..
feel my heart so pain..
i dun like you keep saying a same thing..
cuz let me feel tat i care others more than you..
or you really think me is like tat de!?
i dunno...
so complicated in my heart~
you said i always din tell you my things..keep in my heart...
sometimes really i dunno wan how to say my feel or watelse...
i so sorry about tat too...
yah!!~i know you always try to beside me when i need you...you said no ppl will help you~
mayb i really dunno wan how to let you feel i so tai tip...and others...
you said you tell me tat you feel so stress is useless...i think because i dunno wan how to onn wei you gua...
so, you said you tell me also useless...
yah!!!~~i confess i'm useless...i'm not so strong enough tat you wan..
i cannot do anything i wan to do..
i cannot do anything success...
cuz i really so useless...
nothing i can do...
don't hav self-confidence~
do everything also very stupid~
waste alot of time on my phone than other things...
i do hard everything i wan..but at the end, also useless..
cuz others dunno wan i'm doing...
wat use i hav now~
study also not well if compare wif others..
personalities also not good if compare wif others...
wat i can do??
nothing....
just be a weak person forever and ever!!!!
tears~
can keep bak?
i feel so tired..
plz~

hurt~~

long time din update my blog le..
cuz no time..
haiz....
today i so sad...
cuz after school, onli pauline, me, fish and shinova pratice for the graduation performance...
yaya said she not free...although alr manage the time, bunny fall sick~
then, just now i msg them said tml got pratice...
then yaya said she cannot..
cuz today she alr manage her time, so tml can't..some more she got tuition...
then, i ask her really can't manage a little time for me to teach the steps!??
then, she said can't..
cuz she really dunhav a little time for me..
and she wan put out herself..
she said dunwan gv us trouble wor..
wat's the meaning!!!????
dunwan gv trouble for us??
i dunno...
confuse~~
then, tis few days bunny fall sick..she let me feel tat she unable to perform wif us also..
if like tat, so onli left 4 of us...
4 of us i also dunno wan how to perform...athough it still can go on..
but for me, like lost something..
tat feeling not good for me..
i dunno...
i feel myself so useless...
1 good performance also can't prepare well...
how can i as a good leader in the future!??
i also dunno...
feel myself so useless...
just a small performance also cannot prepare well...
so hurt~~
last time i just said i got a dance performance, you straight away thk dou de is HER, not ME~
you said "ask she teach you all lar...she got go out perform wif me before, so she got alot of experience..."
yah...she really got alot of experience on dance..really more than me...
tat time i din talk anything..just got a feel is, why you can't believe in your gf ability~
must request from others help..
i really can't handle it well mah!??
tat time my heart really is broke...
i din said out..
cuz tis feeling i know myself tat's enuf for me..
tis time really is true...
your gf really so idiot!!
so useless!~~
no word can explain de BODOH!!!~~~

faint~~

tis morning so super HAPPY..
cuz i overslept le..
suppose i wake up at 4.45am de..
today after i turn off my alarm at 4.45am, i slept again...
til 5.40am onli suddenly wake up oh~
my god..~~!!!
then my school bus is gone..
so, onli can ask father fetch me to school..
haiz..
after tat, today my dear din dum find me e..
quite sad actually..
haiz..
but nevermind lar..
yesterday she quite tired, and today her phone dunno why suddenly off itself..
tat's why today so late onli wake up e..
haiz...
naughty de bebe~~
hehe...
then today my school life really gonna made me wan jump off..
cuz today almost the whole day also seeing and reading mathematics~~
add math~~moden math~~~
my god!!~~
faint man..~~
after school, still need to go for add math tuition..
really wan jump off ler..
and today the weather damn hot..
so when be in school, really hard to study..
school has no air-corn~~=(
hence, quite headache when taking add math lessons..
god!!~~
but, luckily i still know how to do the h/w tat teacher given..
hehe~~
then to day dunno why the road so jam..
and got alot of ppl e..
maybe cuz today is selangor holiday bah...
and my dear tonight remain the same de got practice dance e...
bored at home..
cuz she din msg me e..
haiz...
misS euU~~
my dear....

the day~~

today vava 2sumting onli leave from my house oh..
she so careless..
when she go out to take taxi tat time, she fall down at the longkang thr oh..
haiz~~
dunno how she walked de..
so careless~~man..
haiz~~
then today my dear got work e..
and she 9.30pm onli finish work oh..
while waiting she cum bak, i type my blog oh..
today create a new theme tat is for me and her de oh..
hehe~~~
hapi!!~~
then i got go view my facebook...
i saw the 6H gathering de pics oh..
really like so hapi gam wer..
haha~~~
although i din go for the gathering, but i can feel the happiness too...
hehe~~
mayb if next year stil got tis kind of gathering, i will go de..
but also have to see the condition 1st lar..
haha~~
erm~~
tis few days, vava's couple and fish's couple also happen alots of things oh~
hope they can overcum their problem...
and be the sweetest couple again..
actually so wori about them neh..~~
haiz~~
last nite we go out yam cha wif ky..
we chat alot of things..
actually feel quite pity about her story neh~
haiz...
but we dunno need how to help her..
just can try to help and wish she'll be fine...
haiz~~~
wish all the frenz tat aroud me can hang fok always and won't quarrel wif their couple..
anyway, couple is onli once..
we must appreciate it..
if not, it will lost..
and we will regret about it...
GOOd lUCK!!!~~
EVERYONE OF US~!!

dear~job~

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just now accidentally delete whole blog draft~~~~~
have to type again~~~
lol........
today go jusco look for a job...
we start work at the hari raya weeks e..
cuz no money ler...
have to work~~poor~~~
after look for the job, vava put her belongings at mt hse..
then we go out again~~
lol..
today alr use rm12.80 onli for transportation~~
my god!!!!!><>_<
today almost wan argue wif her~~
haiz...
today she got work...
then i din go find her..
she said "you always like tat de lar..biasalah.."
like tat..
haiz~~~
quite sad when she reply me tis..
maybe is she start feel bored cuz always onli she cum to find me bah~~
haiz...
dunno how to explain my feeling now..
when thk bak tis incident~~
but, finally also nthg le..
then, today i got go find her..
when i go find her..
i saw HER!!!!!!
isSh~!!!!!!!!
dunno why so yau yuen~~
sweat...=_=
dun like..~~~
very xiong beng HER when i saw HER just now...
haiz~~
just let it be bah...
misS euU~~
my dear....
maksSSS~~~~~

upset...

last few days din update my blog, cuz got abit lazy..so, i din update my blog..
haiz...
today fish din cum to skul e..
quite bored at skul..
almost sleep whole day at skul...XDXD
cuz teacher din bother us oh~~
kaka..=P
then, today discuss sumting wif vava..
about my 1st anniversary de things.
i alr decide to do a memory books for her..
dunno wat's she feel when she receive it..
hehe~~
then, today hp no money e..
haiz..
can't msg wif my dear e...
damn bored..actually...
sumore tis few days she quite busy~~
busy her academic....busy her performance tat wil be perform at next sunday...
haiz.........
dunno~~
feel so upset and damn bored tis few days..
i wan her..
but she not free, so i try to let myself strong...
let myself also tat busy too~~
but, actually can't..
cuz when everytime i watch my phone see whether got her msg or not..
but almost everytime also dunhav~
haiz..
dunno...
then, today at class we like a big family like tat..
almost all of us chat together at the middle row of table..
we chat til quite excited..
hoho~~
but....
although at skul is tat hapi, but when reach home, still remain de bored~
haiz~~
so tired..
actually...
but i'll try to do the best results of the memory book for her..
hope can give her a big surprise...
i misS euU so much much much much~~~~
my dear..~~
maksSSS...~~~~

my day..

start from yesterday i overnight at my relative's house..cuz father not around kl tis few days oh~~
today quite less msg wif her..
cuz she is at home..
her mum at home too..
so..
cannot msg so much..
haiz..
today got a frenz suddenly called me..
then ask me go sg.wang at 4.30pm oh..
sweat~~==
so late ler..still wan ask me go out oh...
she still wan zha me said .."tis time you cum out, won't frighten dou 'them' de lar.."
like tat oh...sweat man~~==
some more still wan said "now not the time 'they' cum out.."
sweat~~==
i also frighten dou cuz she'll called me, is a thing very very very very very very not normal...
haha...
watever..
at the end, i din out also..
today dunno wat happen to vava..
she din reply me and also bunny da msg..
dunno wat she is doing the whole day~~
haiz..
miss her tim..
wat she doing now ne??
still taking her short nap mah?
dunno~~
haiz..
here got two little cute kids neh..
hehe...
can find them play lur..
hoho...

haiz..

today dunno why the line suddenly not stable..==
haiz..
2day remain the same de bored..
she din bird me so much..
not free gua..
dunno wat she doing..
haiz..
no mood to do h/w today~~
dunno why..
haiz....
tonight she'll cum down kl awhile wif her universiti de frenz..
i thk she'll fetch them gua..
dunno who gonna sit beside her leh??
is it HER?
dunno...and..dunwan to thk it..
haiz...
waste my energy..
tis fri-next mon i'll be at my relatives de house e..
sure less online...
cuz at thr dunhav internet supply..
haiz...
bored~~
wednesday also very busy~~
haiz..........
sad~~~
bored...
haiz....haiz...
dunno wan how to live..........

闷

今天超超超超超级的闷~
在家无所事事..做功课又闷...上网又闷.....
就要死了~~
然后又被'姨妈' 弄到很痛苦~真是的!!
唉~~~
今天依旧跟他很少信息~
就连刚刚他上完课了也没给偶一封信息...
看电话有啥用....
他的信息也不会来....
明天她有没有回来了...
因为有会要开喔..~~
唉...~~~~~
又少了一天和他见面的时间~
真想念他呢...
唉~~~~
时间一滴一滴的过...
希望跟他的感情能够长久...
虽然知道我们的感情是不会永久的..
所以就只好珍惜眼前所拥有的东西咯...
能多久就多久咯~~
顺其自然吧....
唉~~~
要学会独立...习惯~~
好闷~~
有时在想..
有天如果真的分了,会怎么样呢~
依然会是好朋友吗??
会是谁先说出'分手'这两个字呢???
种种疑问会出现在偶脑袋当偶很闷~~
或是他没有信息偶时..
有时都不知偶是是太无聊想这些东东........
还是他依然给不到偶一个踏实..安稳哒感觉呢!??
不知道~~
唉..~~~
谁叫偶那么闷呢..
而且最近626又发生了一些很让偶们4个很不爽的东西....
唉~~
自以为是~~~
但却不是真实哒东东~~~
真是令人讨厌呢....

bored...tired...

haiz...

today remain de bored e...

she din reply me or even a msg from here since she finish class at 4pm tat time...

now she alr taking the next lesson..

haiz...

maybe just now she took rest or not free gua...

sometimes i'll think...

if we really break up, how's the relationship after tat..

we two is it will become a pair of beSt frenz??or wat...

who wil be the 1st ppl say "break" leh!???

tis few questions wil cum out in my mind, when i'm free..

or she din msg me or wat else..

haiz...

maybe i really too free....

or...

maybe now she stil can't let my heart or my mind stable!??

i also dunno...

haiz..

just let it be...

appreciate the day we had now...

be happy, i alr satisfied...

wat she doing just now leh??

quite weird..

but i choose to din ask..

cuz scare she feel me so stupid or wat..

haiz...

recently really happen alot of things...

even though our 626 group, also got alot of things happen...

especially somebody...

always do something stupid towards us...

though she tell others our things, others really wil treat her good..

she really too "brilliant"...

even though she din tell others our things, can please try to join in our group when we are talking?

if you din join in our chat, how you know we are talking about who leh!??

know you smart, but i think din smart til like tat bah....

you always say us din care about you or wat else..

do you think about our way now??

i dunno..

tis thing onli yourself know it...

and always like wan sit stay away from us...

wat is it???

you tell us lar..

other ppl saw it, though we bully you ar...you know?

but actually we din...

just dunno why you always wan like tat..

we alr let it be...

but why you like wan make it more complicated leh??

anything can you tell us?

some more..

four of us alr sam tam...

you wan how, you choose yourself...

we won't force you or do wat anymore...

we alr feel tired...

alr feel disappointed...

alr feel heartbroke.....